well well folks. its april 2006 and thanks to alden, i think i'm going to bring this blog back from the dead so all you voyuers out there can read about every excruciating detail of my life. tragically so much has happened in the past 2 years that it would be rediculous to get into all of it now. but i went into army and now i'm out again. (the army story is quite the tale in itself so i'll leave it for another day ). i'm currently working at bungee bar down at clark quay. its pretty good. but like any job it does get mundane. anyway anyway... this was just to say that i'm back. i'll see if i feel like updating anymore after this.

.: ultrafreeze :: 4:41 AM [+] :.

.: ultrafreeze :: 3:46 AM [+] :.

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.: ultrafreeze :: 6:35 PM [+] :.

Reading this post i realize how extremely pretentious it sounds, but right now it still seems logical and true, and what the hell, i had to put it down before i forgot all of it.

Had a really great night tonight. Now that i'm home it feels like one of those moments of extreme clarity so i just had to put some things down before i forget. Went drinking with jerry, tay and andrew which was so great. I realize i really enjoy just sitting back with a drink and just talking. Especially since i don't see the guys at all during the week, its great to just meet up and catch up. I realize also that we've progressed past the stage where all we want to do is binge drink and get totally wasted. Now, just sitting back and chilling out is all i could ask for. But still i'm so so glad we did all that stupid stuff. I think it was just a phase we all had to go through as part of our teenage life. I mean if we didn't have all that stupid irresponsible stuff, i think there would be a large chunk missing from our memories of our youth and growing up. We were talking and we all agreed that even if we had the chance, we wouldn't change a thing. No regrets. Not even the night when kuan hoong and keong nearly died from drinking too much. Memories man. I also realized tonight that going out and drinking is virtually the only time i can speak properly. I don't mean speak like speaking grammatically correct or anything, but more like one of the only times i'm engaged in a real conversation as opposed to talking with mono-syllabic answers for the purpose of communication. I felt i also spent a lot of time just thinking, thinking about everything. From my time back in secondary school, jc days, the stuff we did together, army life, what i want to do in the future, what else we would like to accomplish, past relationships, how i feel about certain people, especially girls or a girl i like and all that. Guess its quite strange that going out to drink is the time i feel most
reflective.

Later met up with alden and ping to go for a party at Rav which i felt was just great overall. Thats another thing i love about going out, the clubbing. I mean its another opportunity to catch up with my friends, and not just in a "hi, how you doing?" kinda way but really talk, and its also a great place to meet new people. I don't know if its the drinking or the dancing or the music, but the environment is just so comfortable that everyone is always really sociable at clubs. I've made so many friends from clubbing and not only that, i usually see a lot of people i know there, so when i walk in there are familiar faces everywhere. There's something really comforting about that. Its like a personal community of sorts. And also i feel i've matured past the point where clubbing is only either about getting totally wasted till the point of nausea, or meeting some hot girl and dancing with her all night. I guess what i really appreciate is being surrounded by my friends and the fact that i can, and do, act like a total ass and no one is going to judge me or anything. I think if i danced like how i dance in a club anywhere else, i'd be embarrassed to death. Of course the music and the lights and all are also a definite plus. I guess if i go there with the intention of just having fun, as opposed to getting a girl, i can't go wrong. Previously, i would judge the success of a night by whether or not i danced with a girl or not, which made the whole experience a very tiring exercise, ended up putting undue pressure on myself to dance with a girl before the night was up. Like andrew said, the whole experience is an escape, and i find its not one where i lose myself, but more one where i find myself. I realize i'm making clubbing sound like a religious experience but i really felt i discovered a lot about myself tonight and also about my friends. Maybe this will all seem melodramatic in the morning.

.: ultrafreeze :: 4:21 AM [+] :.

Since everyone seems to be putting up new year's resolutions, i think i'll try one too...

In no order whatsoever...
- Survive army
- Better control over money
- Be more polite and nicer in interacting with people
- Be less shy and generally "flow with the go" as someone wise once said = )
- Give up on bad habits
- (i would like a girlfriend but i don't see that happening once i enter the army) hence...
- Be happy with my current relationship status, whatever it may be

.: ultrafreeze :: 12:42 AM [+] :.